I stopped reading my Friends page months ago, as I continue to drift away from LJ, and now I don't know what's going on with anyone.I feel:  blank |
Should I be bothered that in three days I've had two one-word comments on my Friendster profile -- which I've not even looked at in about a year -- from women half my age? who haven't any friendster friends of their own?
I think I should.
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Go to the Apple website right now! NOW, DammiT!
Especially if you like the old Rankin/Bass holiday shows.I feel:  amused Listening to: Escape Mechanism - Elf Song (from The Droplift Project) |
I've just spent about two hours organizing stuff -- meaning, taking things out of boxes where they're just jumbled up, and putting them in a jumble in boxes that are semi-categorized (a project that's been off and on for two months now, and needed to be done last summer) -- in an attempt to find some mirror stickers, which I need to fix the mirror on my truck, that cracked this past weekend while I was trying to remove the thick sheet of ice covering it. (Bits of the cracked portion have flown off while I've been driving all week, so now I have only half a mirror left.)
Mirror stickers proved to be in a box on my desk that I was ignoring. Sigh.I feel:  annoyed Listening to: Pain - Antidote (it goes, "everybody's got a parasite I've got you") |
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I have a lot of Christmas records.
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Ever have the feeling you're the victim of some really big prank, and you don't know it? |
You Are 52% Interesting
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You are a fairly interesting person. Many people find you to be intriguing.
You have a dynamic, adventurous life... a life that others envy.
You are genuinely interested in and open to the world.
You love making new friends, and you're always up for an unusual experience.
Like everyone else, you can get a bit boring from time to time. That's normal.
But unlike everyone else, you can pull yourself out of a rut. You don't stay boring for long.
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A brief review of old posts revealed that really, nothing's changed in my life in a very long time and I have the same complaints now that I did early last summer. I'm pretty good at kicking myself for things I do, now I get to kick myself when I'm down, too. Yay.
I've had my new computer for around a month, and tonight I finally finished installing applications on it. Just in time for the primary drive in the old computer, which I've been accessing to check that things work, to die a horrible death (for the second time) that I can't recover from. Well, I could, except I installed 9.22 and 10.4.11 on the secondary drive, so now the G4 believes that's the system drive and won't let even let me into safe mode to run "fsck", because I also didn't (and don't want to) set up OS X on that secondary drive. It's to become the main drive for when the G4 gets sold in a couple weeks, ergo it needed an OS. Basically I'll have to take the other drive out tomorrow after work and just wipe it, which I was going to do anyway but I was hoping for a few more days.
This past week was really busy, and because bosshole just moved in with his girlfriend he has been out of the office most of the time. Not that he does much work when there anyway. I know it's better to have a job when you're looking for a job; being mentally and physically exhausted and suffering insomnia again makes it even harder. I just wish I had a couple month's worth of bill payments income socked away so I could just quit and spend all my time on job hunting and selling my junk, instead of thinking about it almost constantly and never feeling up to it when I'm finally at home.
Racing season has started again, so my Saturday nights are gone again. Not that anyone wants to spend them with me anyway.
I feel fat, ugly, old and tired.I feel:  melancholy Listening to: some crap on the radio |
"For Better or For Worse" ended today.
On the plus side, the art is some of the best on the comics page, on the minus, the Elizabeth-marries-Anthony story has had all the subtlety of a cudgel to the back of the neck. It doesn't make sense for the characters, tho if you look at FOOB as a whole she's doing what Michael did, marrying her first ever crush. Which isn't what people typically do, or that girl from camp whose name I can no longer remember would have been my wife.
I'd say "oh well" and "life goes on" except that it won't -- Johnston is holding onto her spot in the paper by starting over next week. Yeek.Listening to: Bad Company - Movin' On |
I guess I needed to reach the point where I just can't take it anymore before suffering of my job overcame the hate of the job search. Considering that it's been on my mind all year.
Such happened today. The big printer that is the core of the company needs service, and as big boss man hasn't ensured that the service contract was being paid, we can't get any. With some luck it was working again in the mid afternoon, and I managed to talk myself out of just walking away (I badly need the income); I just can't avoid the facts anymore. The ship's run aground and is rapidly taking on water. My hope is to find a lifeboat that's sturdy enough to take me back to shore.I feel:  anxious Listening to: radio what's new |
Been without real computer at home since Wednesday, when I decided to tear my office apart. Supposedly I was just going to straighten out my cable collection under the desk for my newer computer (It's not "new", just newer than the "old" one), it led to cleaning surfaces and the floor and now I'm engaged in moving furniture around.
(The laptop is still running, in case you were wondering, but all my "home" email accounts and all my data files are on the G4, so I'm somewhat crippled. If I hadn't copied my "money" folder to my flash stick during Tuesday's shenanigans I'd really be up Crappie Creek in a leaky kayak.)
I regret the decision to rearrange. I've lived here so long there's no new way to put my furniture anymore. I drew a map to figure things out (on the computer, I'm so 90's) with little movable boxes representing the five pieces of furniture (2 desks, 2 file cabinets, and a "cart") trying to figure something out. I've changed it several times, and moved some things, but I don't like it and probably Monday night I'm going to put everything back where it started. I'm usually good at spatial relationships, I believe it's just disgust with the limits of the space available and trying not to create another box that's crushing my hopes and dreams right now.
Meanwhile, last weekend I tore apart my LR closet where the computer boxes are stored so I could prepare for selling things, so those boxes are strewn all over the living room which is bugging the heck out of me. Plus, I discovered I already had a VGA/DVI adapter that I spent three days and 58 miles trying to find in a store. Which led to trying to make a list of the crap I've got in these boxes, contributing to the delay in getting the office figured out, and keeping me from operating my computers and getting my life functioning again.
Such as it is.
On the plus side, I don't think I've done a real cleaning of the office in three years or more, which is when I estimate I did this layout.
I really need to quit my job, and move.Listening to: last three tracks on "Anchored in Love", the June Carter Cash tribute CD |
I have about eight little stereo splitter dongles. Y'know, it connects two RCA plugs to one stereo plug.
Where do they all come from?!?I feel: annoyed Listening to: English Beat - Mirror in the Bathroom |
Finally watched a movie trailer on the new-to-me computer, and its brand-new LCD monitor. FAAAAAntastic. (Old computer hasn't been able to play video well for years, too poky, internet video like YouTube is too stuttered.)
Anyway.
In other news, a couple days after I bought the computer, but before I had it, I was going to the movies, and the alternator in my truck quit, which I found out when I was halfway there. I was about halfway back before running out of battery power, which put me close to the K-mart, so I got a battery, called the landlord for some tools to borrow and eventually got home. The next day was Friday, so, hookey for half a day while I tried to find a place nearby to replace the alt for something I could manage -- "afford" went away when I bought the computer, I'll be pushing my luck for the next couple months with the alternator & battery too. (aside, I can't believe that was two weeks ago.)
I managed to sell a few comic book TPBs on Bottalk, enough to help if not to resolve. Probably going to ebay with them soon, if I can't figure out another easier way. I have a storage unit now; I moved out all my empty boxes (suposed to be used for shipping things when I sell them, if I ever do) and boxes of things intended for my next yard sale (mostly leftovers from my last one, a couple years ago). Those, plus the as-yet-unsold books, freed up quite a bit of space so I can actually do some work around here towards selling things. If I'd stop futtering with the new computer.
This past week has been variously busy, with the other job, and running around attempting to find computer stuff, and on Tuesday I went to see Dweezil Zappa at the Egg. (He was awesome.) Shocking - second concert I've been to this year! More typically it's two years between. Speaking of which I have to scrape up $25 to go see a local production of "Five Guys Named Moe" next weekend, which will be the second play I've been to this year, and only the third this decade. Trying to bring culture back into my life has proved more difficult than I expected.
Still aren't any people in my life -- probably because I'm not trying and on some days actively avoiding.I feel:  busy Listening to: Cracker - What The World Needs Now |
After eight years, I finally decided it was time for a newer computer. Actually I started last year with thinking I could upgrade my existing PowerMac G4 but over time and much reading I came to realise that just upgrading the processor speed on the the existing wouldn't be a very big jump -- going to a newer model would mean a faster system bus and using faster RAM and a bunch of other large improvements. I finally bought a PowerMac G5 off eBay a couple weeks ago that has the best possible video card, tho it turned out to be a first-Gen model G5, not second-Gen like I thought (the seller didn't know, and while I thought I did, I didn't -- it in the System Profiler, names and labels on the outside aren't documented enough). The seller has also proved to be a big jerk, having badly packed the computer (it survived, but the front of the "cheese grater" is dented so the drive bay door doesn't open), not including the promised keyboard and mouse, and not responding to any emails. I could have stood to have asked more questions, tho.
While the video card is excellent, and it is much faster, there are some deficiencies. He didn't do anything to upgrade the computer in the time he owned it, so it only had minimal memory (I've already added 2 GB), and a paltry (and slow!) CD-RW/DVD-ROM drive. A replacement for the burner is expected to arrive early next week. The main drive is a little smaller than I'd like, too, but that's not actually a problem. I'll replace it down the road with something larger, or just add a larger as a secondary like I did with the G4. It's surprising that I once had a 512K hard disk on my long-ago Amiga and thought it was hot shit, and now you can buy a 1TB drive for about $200.
Also, BigJerk did a fresh install of OS X 10.5, which means no Classic, and as I sometimes still need Classic (a reason for going with G5 instead of the Pros), I had to do a wipe & reinstall; not really a problem, but the easiest method was denied me becaue BJ applied a password to the user account, which I couldn't get because he's not responding to emails. Oh well, just more hassle. This also gives me the opportunity to purge my Applications of things I never use (and won't) and make sure everything is fresh and up-to-date.
I'm also adding AirPort to it, mostly for kicks because I don't *need* wireless internet, but it would be nice to have, and I got the card for cheap.
The last major item on my list is more USB ports. I could pull the card from the G4 and use it -- I checked -- but as that card is over 5 years old itself I'm strongly interested in just buying a new one. I'm going to visit the Apple store in Albany today for that and to ask a few questions. Just as soon as I get the heck out of here.
This is also a good time to rearrange my office.I feel:  accomplished Listening to: Jam & Toast show on EQX |
I have this feeling something bad is going to happen this month.
It's not because I'm working my way thru the Star Wars movies, either. "I've got a bad feeling about this." No. My hackles are up a bit, there's a tingly sensation at the top of my spine, something's in the air.I feel:  wary Listening to: Ian Dury & The Blockheads - There Ain't Half Been Some Clever Bastards |
I don't write in here much anymore. There's a variety of reasons for this. Mostly that there's nothing going on in my life right now other than working, at a job I should have left six months ago. I haven't managed to hit any of my goals in that same period, which leaves me frustrated and sad. The last thing I did for fun that actually was happened in May, and I've not been very social either. I can't call it "anti-social" because that would indicate that I'm actively not being. It's more of trying and feeling I'm being ignored. Kinda like the reaction to most of what I post here for the last year or so.
Also, there are several people I've repeatedly encountered recently, in reality and online, that I just want to smack in the head with a rubber mallet.
I need to disconnect myself from the things that distract me from what has to get done, or it won't ever happen.
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"We become what we repeatedly do." So if you're doing nothing of value ...I feel:  restless Listening to: Fratellis - Mistress Mabel |
I'm extremely tired of little reminders of how lonely and empty my life has become.I feel:  grumpy Listening to: Snoop Dogg - My Medicine |
Somehow, even tho I had an extra day off this past weekend, I went from feeling like I was only a little behind to feeling like I am a lot behind, because of all the things on the "to-do" list that I just can't get to for whatever reason. Time slippage. Now it's near 2 AM again and I HAVE to go to bed and drop what I'm trying to get to.I feel: irritated Listening to: Clash - Train in Vain |
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